Withdrawal syndrome

After so much worrying about certain matters concerning Matt & Ai Hua's wedding (it wasn't like I had to - but I couldn't help it), I'm feeling rather guilty that I don't have to worry anymore about "crash landings", flow, losing my voice, eating wrong food, falling sick on the wrong day, messing up something, broken violin/guitar strings, malfunctioning microphones, arranging rehearsals and etc. It feels like something is missing. Although it wasn't much fun while I was worrying, I still feel guilty. And I feel guilty for feeling guilty. Am I making any sense?

Furthermore... I feel like I've just sat for a major exam. It's the day after - and I'm wondering if I should really rest or start studying for the next major exam. Half of me acknowledges that there is plenty yet to be done - packing up for the big move, preparing to conduct a theological teaching session at CG this Saturday (don't know why my CG members insisted that I do it, funny people) and working on my theology assignments. On top of that I have to prep myself to teach piano, answer loads of emails and yet work on my language studies. However, the other half of me just can't bring myself to jump-start my engine. I just feel like lazing around and being a bum. 

Such conflicted going-ons within me. Move on, Grace! Move it!

Women can be such emotional beings. I wholeheartedly agree. I am one very emotional woman. But we can't allow emotions to determine how we live our daily lives, can we?