Fatigue, laziness, apathy

All throughout the weekend, I have been fighting fatigue, laziness and apathy. 

I guess it is a post-project syndrome (at least for me). 

Worked too hard during the week ~ which was fine, since work is good for me ~ but when I crash, I crash really hard. This time, I must have crash-landed on my bum. I need to learn how to strike a healthier balance. My mood was also affected by the weather, traces of my flu (had bad allergies on Friday), a random bit of news I received on Friday (which wasn't a biggie, but I was sad and hurt)... and the fast-food I pigged out on (Mc-donald's Samurai Burger and Katsu Curry Shaker Fries are addictive, yo).

However, I am thankful that God did not leave me to wallow in self-pity, apathy and what have you... 

On Saturday morning, I received a Whats-app message from D (our worship-and-music director) requesting that I replaced the worship leader, J, who was supposed to lead worship during our church-wide combined CG event that night. The reason being that J was badly ill. The preparations that came in the "package" of that emergency assignment jolted me to my senses quite a bit. I also followed my hubby to church-office in the morning because he had some ministry work to be done. Sitting in the church office (my former work-place) also helped me to be more productive. 

On Sunday, we went to church in the morning and I got comforted/encouraged by the Word preached by Pst. W. It was on part of James 5, and since I have been meditating on the Book of James recently, the message was pretty timely and relevant to whatever I am endeavouring in the present. Yeah, Pst. W isn't the one to use fancy power-points and stuff - but I remember a lecturer in MBTS who once asked us (after we heard a sermon preached by one of the to-be-graduants that year, which was quite "dull" according to the world's standards) if we could hear God speaking to us. I remember the Holy Spirit's conviction - sharp and keen upon my heart - gently rebuking me for being so distracted by the dryness of the preaching, the lack of interesting illustrations and my pet peeve (grammatical mistakes) - that I had failed to listen to God speak through the person. I was very ashamed of myself. Indeed, God uses the foolish to shame the wise; the weak to shame the strong! Since that incident, I have tried to listen to sermons differently. Now, don't get me wrong - I am not saying Pst. W preaches like that! It's just that nowadays, some people are so dependent on lively animations, cool power-point slides and impressive speeches that Pst. W's sermons (which do away with many of these) can be rather challenging to listen to for such people. Looking past these things, Pst. W's sermons are earnest, simple, straightforward and speak to the heart - and ultimately, God - who speaks through Pst. W - is greater than Pst. W. 

Today, I didn't feel like waking up in the morning - but I did. LOL. I will try to look forward to completing my apologetics paper (I'm already late).