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| Climbing in and out of her cot on her own |
The first time she climbed into the cot on her own, we weren't prepared because we just weren't expecting her to succeed - and succeed she did. She stood on the edge of our bed, pulled herself over the rails like she had been rock-climbing all her life (perhaps she trained secretly on her own while we weren't watching), and somersaulted into the cot before the eyes of her shocked speechless parents. She was as cool as a cucumber while she did it too. Thank goodness, there were loads of cushioning inside and no hard toys out and about. Also, luckily, she was climbing in and not climbing out. Having tasted the joy and victory of her new accomplishment, Sophie is savouring her new thrills - scaling new heights (literally) wherever and whenever she finds the opportunity to do so. I am trying to get used to the idea that my baby will be attempting crazier things soon. Perhaps, I will finally get to grow some white hairs.
Easter. Resurrection. Knowing Jesus has risen should inspire one to live like He did rise from the dead. To live a hope-saturated life. I need that hope to permeate especially one area of my life right now i.e. motherhood. I don't know how I became Sophie's mom. I don't know why it's Sophie whom we conceived. I don't feel like I am worthy of being her mom - I feel like she deserves a much better mom than myself. And many times, I beat myself up for not being as adequate a mom as I would like to be to her. However, if GOD has chosen me to be Sophie's mom and no other, then I pray that I might not only be given to strength and grace to mother her (whatever "mothering" should mean), but also the strength and grace to persevere with faith-led hope and discipline my thoughts whenever I feel low and terrible about myself, my mothering skills, and my worth. I don't want to have to keep comparing myself to other mothers, my mother-in-law, and my own mom. Because Christ has risen (which proves that God is real and His Word is true), I should trust Him and His sovereignty in enabling me to nourish a baby and entrusting me with the precious person Sophie is. "Faithful is He who calls you, and He also will bring it to pass" (1 Thess 5:24). He never calls the qualified, but He qualifies those He calls. Perhaps I am terrible at cleaning soiled bottoms, multi-tasking, and putting her to bed at night... and I know I am. Haha. Also, I don't exactly enjoy housework especially when it involves loads of laundry and milk-stained bottles to wash. I tend to leave those at the bottom of my to-do list. But still, I would like to enjoy being to Sophie what no other can be to her. Yeah, I wonder what.
Anyway...
Rambling aside.... may you have a blessed Easter, folks!
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