Blues - the usual ones after I'm done with a huge assignment. The burden gets lifted off my shoulders, yes... but I start to feel really uneasy without it (like I haven't done enough) - and hesitant/reluctant to pick up the next burden. Anyway, I've got to preach this Wednesday. Please keep me in prayer - that I will not be nervous at all and that getting my message across to Dr. L and class would be... a piece of cake. Hehe. I hope to put my sermon on my blog once I am done preaching it... and you can critique it if you like...
Bliss and blessed - Hubby surprised me at my work place today... so that we could have dinner together before I met up with my friends. It was also sweet to eat at Tesco's food-court while watching the rain patter down outside (through the huge glass windows). What a romantic ambience! It wasn't your high-class restaurant with classical music and champagne ~ but I still treasured every minute of our time together. Meet-up with seminary friends was really refreshing too. We meant to talk theology - and we did for a good chunk of time... but I think it was the personal sharing of my friends on how God's grace worked in their lives that helped all the theological discussion make sense. "Just a spoonful of sugar makes the medicine go down" kind of thing. I could really feel the Holy Spirit tugging on my heart. As a result of our meet-up, I am yearning for fresh wind and fresh dew in my relationship with God.
I am not contented to stay where I am. Being a seminary student with loads of assignments and ministry commitments (to say nothing about family/marriage/work commitments, etc), it is so easy for my relationship with God to plateau. In the past 3-4 years, I have struggled and I am still struggling. I struggle for unhurried time to wait on Him. I struggle to read His Word in a non-academic manner (whatever that means). However, I thank God that He always meets me where I am - and grants me grace in my struggles. He teaches me new ways to encounter Him (which is why the course I am doing on sacraments and liturgy really helps me) and speaks to me afresh through different people at various points of my journey. I thank Him that I am not alone. He has called me; I have responded... and He will carry me through - because I can't do it on my own.
I want to love God more. Who is with me?
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