The hubby gave me a very early birthday present. (Birthday's at the end of this month.) Well, we've been talking about getting me a tab for quite a while by now, since I felt that it would help me with my studies, work and stuff. On Saturday, we went for a leisurely walk at one of the malls in town - where we had the opportunity to check out the different tabs in the market - mostly Ipads and Samsung Galaxy Tabs - as well as compare the prices offered by different shops. In the end, the Samsung Galaxy Note 10.1 captivated me the most ~ and Ben decided to get that for my birthday present this year. (Later, while reflecting on the price at which he purchased my tab, we realized that God had already provided for it in advance... amazingly.)
Yups, yups... I am now indeed the blessed owner of this gadget! Thank You, God ~ and thank you, dear hubby. I am loving it.
In the past week or so (since the new semester at seminary began), I have been feeling quite anxious and stressed out ~ not to mention moody and depressed. I've got three heavy assignments piling up on top of one another - and 3 sessions of worship-leading to prepare for (that of church and the seminary)... to make no mention of my daily classes with the kids. The suspense of the not-yet-completed and yet-to-begin is very unsettling. As a result of all that emotional turmoil, my self-esteem crashed. I began feeling mediocre, unattractive, useless, dumb, unaccepted and etc. Consequently, I momentarily "unliked" myself and turned anti-social. :P Nevertheless, I pray that I will feel better this coming week, stop entertaining the lies of the Enemy and quit thinking negative, self-destructive thoughts. Then again, I am filled with gratitude at how God has shown me that He is walking with me through it all.
A question that Ps. Shearn asked at dinner today (got the 4 of us, his fellow diners, thinking) goes like this: "What makes you angry?" We marveled at how people with different personalities get angry for different reasons! xD
I get angry for many reasons ~ haha. Because I wear masks, I hide my anger quite well (from everyone except my hubby :P) until the weight of the masks threaten to suffocate me. Subsequently, depression sets in. I think... the awareness of my inability to be in control of things/life makes me the angriest. I am a melancholic control-freak. I've lost count of the number of times I've had to ask God to forgive me for my rebellious spurts. Working on my control-freak-ness though - by God's grace. I hope to take off more masks.
What about you? What makes you angry? :)
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