Staying in my head a tad bit too much...

...I am. 

I dislike the clutter inside. Scenes, memories, conflicts and now, my sermon-crafting dilemmas ~ all mingling with each other like spaghetti immersed in meat sauce. I need to get out of my head. Like now.

Sometimes, I don't realise that I have gone in there. It is only when a thought becomes too disturbing, melancholic, embarrassing or hilarious, that the twitch of my facial muscles remind me to pay attention to the much bigger world outside.

I am starting to dislike this habit - because I tend to over-analyse stuff. It makes me unsettled and emotional. Way too emotional. Hate it.

Anyway... just in case you are getting tired of my melancholic rant....

I went out for lunch with Josephine yesterday. It was a very spontaneous thing... after spiritual formation class - we've always wanted to chat about my depression but never had time (thanks to our assignments). I let out a hundred and one things from my heart... and felt good because I had an older woman listen to me. And then she made me feel even better by helping me to understand why I was depressed. 

She said something that truly struck a chord in me: "Ask God to satisfy you..."

I really needed someone to say that to me.