Weekend over

...and it's time to work my socks off again. *Puts on my most determined and enthusiastic face*

Sunday. My dream the previous night was interesting. I dreamed a dream ~ and then I replayed the memory of that dream like a video (whilst still asleep) and so, there were two identical dreams in one sleep. Why did I decide to replay? Well, I was surprised by something in the dream... a twist of some sort... and so, I wanted to see the clues I missed out when I first dreamed it. This was certainly no pizza dream. Roti Bom dream maybe - after last night's mamak session with the cell group people.

I didn't hear Bach's Brandenburg Concerto no. 1 playing the cue for me to wake up... and so I woke up late. Because the hubby overslept too, we had to fly to church. However, we were blessed that we had gone.

Choir practices at Fettes Park went on for 3 solid hours today (usually it's 2 hours). One hour of rehearsing for a charity concert (during which I will be a 2nd soprano) and another two hours of rehearsing for the Festival of Sacred Music (1st alto). By the end of the third hour, I was so tired of sitting towards the edge of my chair with back straight and feet flat on the floor that I must have looked very bored (and rebellious) in the front row. And then I began croaking.

Had dinner at Gurney Plaza with the hubby - and we watched a recording of "Life As We Know It" back home. I think it was an educational film. But if you ask me if it made me especially clucky, um... not really. Don't get me wrong. I do want kids of our own - and Ben would love them. But at the moment, I've got unresolved anxieties about motherhood and pregnancy. I'm also waiting for God's direction with regard to what I am to do post-graduation. It's a lot of anguish, uncertainty and unsettledness. Restlessness even. People tell me to "Have faith" and stuff. "You are not getting any younger. Have a baby before you are 30." (which doesn't leave me that much time, huh. I will be gloriously 30 in January.) Good advice. I concur mostly. But honestly? I really want to run away whenever I hear things like that. Well, it's God's call. If He gives us a child now, I'd gladly receive him/her as a blessing - and I believe that He would help me to straighten out my issues too. Otherwise, I don't really want to think of "making a baby" - as some sort of urgent "mission"- at the moment. I just want to work on being healthy, work on my marriage (!!!), work on my studies, write and live. The baby will come whenever or if God permits. He is sovereign - and I am thankful for that. 

Ehem... to those who pray for us... thank you. Keep praying. We never know when God decides to surprise us.

Anyway...

Have a fantabulous week, folks.