And I am anxious to get it over and done with, even while I'm quite excited about preaching my sermon on Judas Iscariot and spiritual maturity.
The part of me that is passionate about teaching wants to present what I've been inspired to write on the subject. To get it all out - because it was not mine to keep in the first place. I am, but the privileged channel of God's Word, God's exhortations and God's love. Nothing more than that.
The artist in me wants to enrich lives with a glimpse, a taste and a touch of beauty - be it in the shape of the sermon, literary features or my human-articulation of God's Word. I don't know if my craft qualifies - and I am eager to find out. But ultimately, may everything in my sermon point my listeners to the great beauty and grace of God..... because I was certainly astounded at His beauty myself, while I was in the process of crafting the sermon. It is not about what I know, really. I found myself pretty inadequate at times to word what I had up there in the recesses of my mind. (I am jumbled up most of the time, haha.) Rather, it is about how God led me to refreshing springs of ideas, how He brought the most appropriate people to say things that got me thinking, and how He brought light so beautifully and magically (if I may use this word) to the difficulties of formulating concepts. It has been a truly enjoyable journey.
The part of me that is not so happy about standing out there alone and being under the scrutiny of my most-respected lecturers and professors... is roaring NO, NO, NOOOOOO..... Not like that is going to change anything.
To those of you who have prayed for me, thank you. I truly appreciate it.
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