In a few days time, I will turn 30.
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| An early celebration thanks to my CG ~ pardon the unsightly red sole and tissue paper; as it was a surprise, I wasn't prepared to be photogenic! :P |
30 is to be a big thing for some - and I suppose that reflecting on the numbers in my age in the upcoming decade would make me feel somewhat differently toward my relationships and priorities in life (as well as the organised chaos in which I operate). Nevertheless, I am very excited about my 30s and look forward to the summer of my life as a mortal being. After all, God's eternity is forever. 30 is but a number that reminds you that you are still young, in Christ, and have much to learn and explore.
My 20s... it has been an incredible decade on the whole. It was definitely not free of pain, illness, suffering, uncertainties, heartbreaks, failures, mistakes or wants. No, all these were constantly present; but because of their presence and because God is greater than all these pains, my 20s was a decade of growing, overcoming and becoming for me. It was also a decade of many healing journeys - whether from my mom's demise or from my eating disorders. The child I once was - so wrapped up in myself, so distressed over not having control over everything of life, so distant and detached from others (and masked when I did connect with people), and so unsure of my identity - blossomed and transformed in the joy that came from knowing the God I never really knew till I was 17 as well as experiencing His grace and provision in life's myriad of struggles. I have also been blessed with the best of friends for whom I am grateful. At 29, I am still very far from perfect - but I do look forward to growing more in the upcoming 30s... especially into a person whose soul is like that of a weaned child with its mother, quiet and contented in the hope that I have in Jesus Christ. (Ps 131)
My 20s was also a decade which I spent donning the hat of a student - be it in medicine or theology. It is nice that that I graduated from MBTS (and completed my final papers) just in time for my 30th birthday! I pray that all the studying so far has prepared me for the next season and chapter in line - and that I would never stop having a teachable heart or the passion for knowledge. I don't know if I will ever don the hat of a student again - but we don't really need to the title of "students" to take pleasure in studying and learning, do we?
Well then, Grace Moo... may it be another wonderful decade of knowing God, being in love, loving, learning the lessons that love teaches, sowing and harvesting, working, expressing passion, fighting for the right things, advocating for the voiceless, unlearning bad habits, unlearning the wrong mindsets, maturing in your gifts, relationship-building, letting go of whatever you have to let go of... and growing old gracefully. May you be a kind and compassionate mother... a far more selfless wife... and a prayerful friend. In Jesus' name, amen.
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